I started making a list of New Years resolutions, the usual, get back to race weight, train like a maniac for Roth, find a new job etc etc etc. Then I realized they all come down to one thing, being fucking happy. None of it matters if I spend another year being miserable, so I’m just gonna keep doing the things I love, that make me happy, with people who inspire or lift me up and fuck the rest of it. At the end of the day what does any of it matter if none of it resulted in making me happy? There is gonna be a lot of “fuck it” in 2017 because I’ve lived nearly 35 years being cautious and calculated and risk averse and the best things that have happened to me in recent times have been when impulse took over and I just stopped thinking about shit. So there, no whinging about things I do have the power to change, no waiting for things to happen for me enough planning every detail of every aspect of my life. Let shit happen, find shit to make happen, and take a fucking chance, what is the worst that could happen? #selfpeptalk #newyearsresolutions #fuckit
Who am I and what is Crooked Little Arrow?
Well I am a single 30 something who is slightly disillusioned, feeling stagnant and stuck and attempting to change some situations I’m not particularly stoked to be in.
As for Crooked Little Arrow, this is my outlet to try and change said situations.
A few months ago I made a decision that I could stay in a job I disliked because it’s safe and secure and affords me some of life’s pleasures, or I could see what other options I could create for myself and perhaps see if there was a happy medium out there to satisfy my need to pay the mortgage and my desire to float off on a whim should that be the way the wind blows me on any given day.
It’s early days, I’m not sure what I’m doing and I’m not sure what the answer is to my conundrum. I know there is no easy fix which is why I want to explore the options and opportunities that both come my way and that I create myself.
This isn’t going to be a “I quit my job and make $100,000 a year while I holiday” blog. I don’t intend it to be a, I did this and you can too, either. This isn’t about quick fixes and making money persay, although changing where my income comes from is part of my end goal. I want this blog to record my successes and my failures and real experiences of me.
The goal of all of this? Do something I love, I’m passionate about, pay the bills I need to pay and live the way I want to.